I know it's been ages since the last time I posted something here, and i really apologize for that.
I apologize because I promised myself whenever I feel overwhelmed or like everything is too much for me to handle I'll write those feelings down. And I didn't.
I'm drained, tired and all over the place. So, let's try to do this now. hopefully it's not to late ?
My last post was on Auguste and A LOT of things happened\changed since then. And those are the highlights!
1- I got the the scholarship I wanted to Australia and then turned it down.( I know what are you guys thinking!)
2- I got accepted at GUST.
3- I had a part time job at zain for 4 months then I quit! ( it's not easy to work and study at the same time :c )
4- I bought LOTS of books and I stopped reading .. ( again, I blame uni)
5- my hair is constantly changing.
6- I turned 19 last year. so, I'll be 20 this year ... ( when did I grow up this fast?)
What's going on ?
I don't know if it's only me but sometimes I need to take break form everyone and everything.
like, all the thoughts and feelings by others are so confusing and it's leaving me .. tired in away. I feel like I'm not focusing on myself anymore and that is killing me slowly, because in a way I'm not there for me and after a while I'm not there for anyone. Physically here, but mentally no.
So, I decided to take a break ( hopefully, a week) I deleted my whatsapp, deactivated my twitter account and I'm not going out with anyone but family members. It's all about me, myself and I.
What's the plan ?
Well, I'm having a lot of one on one sessions. I'm deciding, figuring out and thinking about where I stand in some causes, what's my next move to some ideas and issues I'm having AND HOW TO COMPLETE MY FIRST SEMESTER IN UNI WITHOUT DYING! seriously, the last one is hard :P
good news are : I'm getting there and I'm already feeling lighter. ( like a damn butterfly. mhhmmm )
So, if YOU feel like you want to have a break or to get away from people to solve things out then do it! don't worry about how others will feel about it. Your true friends will understand, your family supports you ( if not I will ) and those who honestly care about you will pick up the phone and asks about your feelings today. So, there's no reason you shouldn't give your self a break, because YOU MATTER TOO, OKAY!
- Did this post make sense ? I hope so.